.a late night love note.

Some people are never lucky enough to find someone that loves them unconditionally. For those of you who actually have this kind of love, you know what I mean. I mean the person who would do anything for you and give anything to be with you. I mean the person who comforts and protects you; a person who provides and nutures; a person who sees you inside and out; a person would never make you feel unworthy. This is only a few of those things. I feel that in order to say your vows and truly dedicate your whole life to one person, it must be for these reasons and many more. A marriage or relationship should never be complicated or difficult. There will always be compromise and there will always be hard times. That's life. But always keeping your faith and trust in that individual is key. Respecting and cherishing that person is vital. The love that is there should never be a chore. It should never feel exhausting to make something work or to love someone. I am so sick and tired of hearing about relationships who are spending more time fixing then loving. They always say, "you don't understand. it's hard." Yes I do understand. I know how hard it can get. And that's why I'm not with that person anymore. Because when it gets to that point when you're more depressed than happy, that is the time when you should let go. So many people try to stick with it because they think it will eventually get better. I want to tell those people that loving someone should not have to be a difficult matter. My husband is my best friend, my soulmate, my shoulder and my life. Everything about him makes me feel wonderful. He still gives me butterflies when he looks at me and he still makes me laugh every single day. Are you people who think it takes work to make a healthy relationship still laughing everyday or getting butterflies?? I bet you are not.

How about this:
1. Does he send you a message everyday asking how his beautiful wife is?
2. Does he keep a picture of your wedding photo in his car on his dashboard?
3. Does he kiss you before he leaves work EVERYDAY and says he loves you, even if you're still sleeping, without missing a beat?
4. Does he lay in bed with you and ask what is wrong and then talk you through it?
5. Does he bring home flowers on no special occasion, just because he loves you?
6. Does he set up a makeshift massage parlour in your living room and give you a much deserved massage one night as a surprise for when you got home? (<---yes, he does that!)

7. Does he just pull you to him and hold you when you're having a really bad day?

8. Does he cry with you when you are hurting?

9. Does he clean the house for you while you're at school (or work) and surprise you when you get home?

10. Does he call you and tell you he misses you EVERY SINGLE DAY?

11. Did he remember to say Good Luck when you needed it most?

12. Does he try everything he can to provide for you?

13. Does he stay up late with you even though he is tired from working all day just to make you feel better?

There is so much more I could put into this blog but I would be writing forever! These are just a few of the things Ollie has done for me in the last week. Seriously. He is amazing. We miss each other like crazy these days, mainly because he works 2 jobs and I'm at school all day on the days he doesn't work. However, even with that, we couldn't love each other any less. I often wonder how I got so lucky. He says he is the one who got lucky. :) All I know is that this man is the perfect example of who a man is supposed to be. He is the most loving and devoted father. It pains him to not see Elle as much as I do. It seriously makes him sad. When he sees her face it just lights him up inside. She is his achilles heal and it makes me beam. How could I have asked for anything better? Well, it does get better. He is a God-fearing man. He loves the Lord more than me and Elle combined....if that's even possible. Have you ever stayed up late talking about God with your significant other? I'm sure alot of you who read my posts do....but I'll let you in on a little secret. I think we are the only people our age who do something like that these days. It's just how the times have gone. Sadly, young people are drifting more and more away from the roots of spirituality and it's very sad. I believe that this strong foundation built on our faith is why we love each other so much. I believe it is what has made us strong and I believe it is what will make us last until we are old and gray. I wish so many of you could experience this kind of love that I have. He takes my breath away still.

I know alot of you are sick of this mushy gushy stuff right now but I had to write this down as a testament of how much I appreciate him and everything he has done for me. This week he has kept me sane and has kept me feeling worthy. I love him for that. He deserved a blog about him and I thank God for the wonderful life and future He has given to me. For those of you who read this and aren't experiencing this with you significant other, I feel sorry for you. This is how it is supposed to feel. This is how it is supposed to be. This is what love is. Remember that. I'll end it with a very famous love song...He is my prince charming.

So this is love, Mmmmmm
So this is love, So this is what makes life divine
I'm all aglow, Mmmmmm
And now I know
The key to all heaven is mine

My heart has wings, Mmmmmm
And I can fly, I'll touch ev'ry star in the sky
So this is the miracle
that I've been dreaming of
MmmmmmMmmmmm
So this is love

.mistake.

So....scratch that last post...it is frickin freezing this week! Tonight it's going to be 36 degrees AND it's supposed to rain ALL weekend! yay!!! I'm so excited about it but it's amazing how it could be super super hot one minute, and the next it's cold!

So what does this little guy's shirt say?? can you see it??

MY SISTER AMY IS PREGNANT! yay! She had a horrible time getting pregnant with little Leo and was certain it wouldn't happen again, since they had to go about it technologically last time....BUT God works in mysterious ways and she found out she's 5 weeks along. Due date is October 11. I cannot wait for her to see her little girl! yes, thats right, I've decided it will be a girl. :) SO Congratulations to her and Sam and our little Leo. He's going to be a big brother!

Here's the New Mommy!!!

The party went ridiculously well! In fact the owner of the tables that I rented wants to use me and Ollie as dealers in the future...frickin a! That's awesome! Talk about a dream job of mine! See?! How cute am I??

Don't they look like they're having fun

Tony was the Loser! haha..
Elle had fun too! She likes to be naked...silly girl...



So I'm super obsessed with dance shows these days. I think I secretly want to be a genuine dancer...BUT I think everyone needs to watch stuff like this...it is amazing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hv5tPShaKWY

Are the leaves changing???

IS IT SERIOUSLY HOT ALREADY?? I don't know why I'm surprised...After 22 years of living here I should expect it...but I'm always mortified when it starts getting hot here this stinkin early. Call it wishful thinking if you must, but I long for the day when Arizona will hold off being a fiery furnace until April at least. Today I got into my car and I could have sworn it gave me 3rd degree burns! It's February 7th people...this isn't normal! uugghh. So Elle's potty training is going nice and slow...She will sit on the potty but will she go?? Now that's a different story...but at least she's not scared of it anymore. (I couldn't get her to sit on it for the longest time because she would freak out). I actually have her in big girl undies right now becausae I want to see if she'll tell me when she thinks she's about to go. She comes up to me and says "pee pee" on a normal day but I don't know if she grasps the concept. I guess this is my way of testing it. :)




So, the cardinals didn't win...man...my brother looked sooo sad. I felt so bad for him. This was his dream...almost as if he was the one actually playing...but they fell short. I guess better luck next year?? let's hope anyway.
SO, me and Ollie wanted to get our own house this year. I guess every family wants that more than anything. I guess with the economy how it is, I shouldn't be surprised that we were turned down for a home loan. Ollie's pretty beat up about it but I gave him the pep talk he needed. We know that there are awesome houses right now for rent and we will make the best of that...maybe in a year, we'll finally get our own...but for now, we're just happy to have a place to call home. School is going great actually! I can't believe it myself. I'm sure I'll think differently when the tests start pouring in but even though this semester is supposed to be my most difficult one ever, it is starting to be my most enjoyable. I hope I still feel that way when my test scores come back. :P FOr those of you who don't know me, I am a HORRIBLE test taker. My whole life I've been this way. The anxiety that gets to me is so ridiculous that I will forget everything that I stored in my short term memory right before the test is handed out. Just simply awful. SO, hopefully there will be alot of presentations to do...I know, I think I'm the only person ever who would rather stand up and do presentations before taking a test, but that's me I guess.

For our anniversary we went to see Jeff Dunham in Tucson. (he's a comedian that deal with puppets...a ventriloquist...he's awesome.) I have video of his routine but it's kind of adult contented so I'm not going to post it...if you want to see it tho, let me know! He was hilarious! We then went and ate at our new favorite reastaurant, "The Melting Pot". OH MY GOSH! soooo good guys. If you ever have the money, GO! It's amazing. A big fondue experience...just awesome. Here are some pics of us at the show and then the restaurant....Haha...that's me taking a huge bite!

Ollie turned 25 last week but because his sister HAD to have her son on his birthday 2 years ago, he now has to let him have his parties...haha...Just kidding Missy, we love Alex. BUT, it did kind of put Ollie in the corner so I decided to throw him a party that takes place tonight! It was supposed to be a surprise, but of course he had to go and ruin that....We love the casino life so I rented tables and dealers and we are having a casino party! It's going to be sooo much fun. I'm going to deal blackjack and I am stoked...I so hope everyone has a great time. I'll blog about the party later but it should be pretty sweet.

Last week at Alexs' birthday party I finally realized how big my little girl is...For those of you who would like to see what I'm talking about here is video of her on Alexs' new toy...Oh and make sure you watch her wave to the neighbors!

By the way, I have another video that shows her turning the quad herself! I mean seriously?? that's craziness. Anyway, she is so big and growing so much everyday. Well with all this change going around, I hope that doesn't mean I'm turning into a democrat. :) HA!