.a late night love note.

Some people are never lucky enough to find someone that loves them unconditionally. For those of you who actually have this kind of love, you know what I mean. I mean the person who would do anything for you and give anything to be with you. I mean the person who comforts and protects you; a person who provides and nutures; a person who sees you inside and out; a person would never make you feel unworthy. This is only a few of those things. I feel that in order to say your vows and truly dedicate your whole life to one person, it must be for these reasons and many more. A marriage or relationship should never be complicated or difficult. There will always be compromise and there will always be hard times. That's life. But always keeping your faith and trust in that individual is key. Respecting and cherishing that person is vital. The love that is there should never be a chore. It should never feel exhausting to make something work or to love someone. I am so sick and tired of hearing about relationships who are spending more time fixing then loving. They always say, "you don't understand. it's hard." Yes I do understand. I know how hard it can get. And that's why I'm not with that person anymore. Because when it gets to that point when you're more depressed than happy, that is the time when you should let go. So many people try to stick with it because they think it will eventually get better. I want to tell those people that loving someone should not have to be a difficult matter. My husband is my best friend, my soulmate, my shoulder and my life. Everything about him makes me feel wonderful. He still gives me butterflies when he looks at me and he still makes me laugh every single day. Are you people who think it takes work to make a healthy relationship still laughing everyday or getting butterflies?? I bet you are not.

How about this:
1. Does he send you a message everyday asking how his beautiful wife is?
2. Does he keep a picture of your wedding photo in his car on his dashboard?
3. Does he kiss you before he leaves work EVERYDAY and says he loves you, even if you're still sleeping, without missing a beat?
4. Does he lay in bed with you and ask what is wrong and then talk you through it?
5. Does he bring home flowers on no special occasion, just because he loves you?
6. Does he set up a makeshift massage parlour in your living room and give you a much deserved massage one night as a surprise for when you got home? (<---yes, he does that!)

7. Does he just pull you to him and hold you when you're having a really bad day?

8. Does he cry with you when you are hurting?

9. Does he clean the house for you while you're at school (or work) and surprise you when you get home?

10. Does he call you and tell you he misses you EVERY SINGLE DAY?

11. Did he remember to say Good Luck when you needed it most?

12. Does he try everything he can to provide for you?

13. Does he stay up late with you even though he is tired from working all day just to make you feel better?

There is so much more I could put into this blog but I would be writing forever! These are just a few of the things Ollie has done for me in the last week. Seriously. He is amazing. We miss each other like crazy these days, mainly because he works 2 jobs and I'm at school all day on the days he doesn't work. However, even with that, we couldn't love each other any less. I often wonder how I got so lucky. He says he is the one who got lucky. :) All I know is that this man is the perfect example of who a man is supposed to be. He is the most loving and devoted father. It pains him to not see Elle as much as I do. It seriously makes him sad. When he sees her face it just lights him up inside. She is his achilles heal and it makes me beam. How could I have asked for anything better? Well, it does get better. He is a God-fearing man. He loves the Lord more than me and Elle combined....if that's even possible. Have you ever stayed up late talking about God with your significant other? I'm sure alot of you who read my posts do....but I'll let you in on a little secret. I think we are the only people our age who do something like that these days. It's just how the times have gone. Sadly, young people are drifting more and more away from the roots of spirituality and it's very sad. I believe that this strong foundation built on our faith is why we love each other so much. I believe it is what has made us strong and I believe it is what will make us last until we are old and gray. I wish so many of you could experience this kind of love that I have. He takes my breath away still.

I know alot of you are sick of this mushy gushy stuff right now but I had to write this down as a testament of how much I appreciate him and everything he has done for me. This week he has kept me sane and has kept me feeling worthy. I love him for that. He deserved a blog about him and I thank God for the wonderful life and future He has given to me. For those of you who read this and aren't experiencing this with you significant other, I feel sorry for you. This is how it is supposed to feel. This is how it is supposed to be. This is what love is. Remember that. I'll end it with a very famous love song...He is my prince charming.

So this is love, Mmmmmm
So this is love, So this is what makes life divine
I'm all aglow, Mmmmmm
And now I know
The key to all heaven is mine

My heart has wings, Mmmmmm
And I can fly, I'll touch ev'ry star in the sky
So this is the miracle
that I've been dreaming of
MmmmmmMmmmmm
So this is love